Thinking out Loud

2021.12.07 00:56 one_more_gay_boy Thinking out Loud

[23 M, US]
Dunno why I'm typing this. I generally don't care for the opinions of random internet people, but I kinda just need to put my thoughts into words and I have no one I can really share them with irl so.
I went on first dates with a couple guys I met on tinder around the same time a few months ago.
With one of the guys, we'll call him Cody, it went really well. We had great conversation, he was friendly, engaging, and funny. He wasn't particularly my type, kind of lacking in looks, and also not very... interesting (best word I can think of), but we got along really well.
With the second guy, we'll call him Paul, it went meh. He was friendly, very interesting, really funny, and very much my type. However, the date was kind of awkward and even though I felt it was about par for the course as far as first dates go, he ended up more or less ghosting me for a month. Which hurt, but it happens.
In that time I ended up getting into a relationship with Cody, which has been great because I'm generally a very emotionally dependent person and he is very emotionally available. However, I've felt for most of this time that this isn't really a permanent thing for me, just better than being single--especially over the holidays. idk how long I want to be with him, because I know I can find something better, but I'm very happy to not be dating for the moment. Because I hate dating.
Anyway, after a month of ghosting Paul and I reconnected and had a conversation where we agreed to be friends only. I still liked him, and told him as much, but I have little friends in my city and he shares a lot of my interests so I agreed. Since then we've hung out every week or so and it's been a lot of fun. I also fell deeper into feelings for him, but kept them to myself because I doubted he felt anything for me. Paul is a very emotionally closed person, which is hard for me, but we still have a lot of fun together.
But this last weekend, Paul and I went to some bars together. I told him ahead of time to take it easy because he's a lightweight, but he ended up getting a little tipsy, and myself as well. At that point I asked him if he thought I was hot and he told me yes and he started making out with me. A little while and a couple drinks later it was obvious he was pretty drunk so I got an uber and took him back to my place. I gave him advil and water and laid him down. He kept trying to make out with me more but I didn't want to do anything with him while he was drunk. After he had sobered up a little it was very late and I asked him if he wanted to go home. He said he wanted to cuddle and sleep, so we did that.
Now I wasn't as affected by the alcohol that night as he was, which made me feel bad bc I felt that even kissing him was taking advantage of him. But on the other hand, I felt that we had turned a corner. For a little while it seemed all the crushing I had been doing on him was validated and it made me really happy because I really really like him.
In the morning we chatted for a couple of hours in bed, just sobering up and making conversation. At some point I asked him if this meant he was interested in being more than friends and he gave me a very flat no. I asked him why, and he told me that although he liked me and found me attractive, he had "feelings" that a relationship would not work and asked me not to pursue one. That was the vague word he used and would not elaborate on. I probably would not be as bothered as I am if he gave me a solid reason, but I don't know if that's a fair way to think. We chatted a while longer and he went home on good terms.
So this is my problem. As I've said I'm a very emotionally dependent guy, and at this point I have fallen hard for Paul. I could try to go back into the friend zone, but I think it's going to be very painful for me and I would never be able to erase my feelings for him. I've dated a lot of guys and it is very hard for me to like someone let alone feel the way I feel about him. Probably I would end up hurting us both. And if he found another relationship I would be devastated.
Alternatively I could just cauterize the wound and end our friendship. It would suck to lose one of the few friends I have in my city--especially since he really is fun to hang with--but being emotionally unburdened from obsessively thinking about him 24/7 would be amazing and would allow me to focus more on my relationship with Cody for the time being, which is going well.
Both of these options suck, just not sure which would suck less.
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2021.12.07 00:56 removecommenthistory The only good takeaway from the past few days

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2021.12.07 00:56 Baldneptune How do I deal with an unprofessional manager?

For context I work at a ceramic studio where people come to paint pottery and pick it up a week later.
Yesterday when a customer walked in I couldn't find her first or last name on any package, I look on the bakers rack, party room, and front. I also checked the POS to look for her information and I couldn't find any package with her number or email on it.
After I told the customer I wasn't seeing the package she became very annoyed with me and left. She came back this time with her mom on the call screaming and cussing. She asked for a manager and I told her I'd go back and check if she was still there. I told my manager she wanted to talk to her and she just replied and said to tell her to email us which I did. At this point the customer already knew she was in the building. It wasn't until my second time going to the back (after the customer urged me to get my her) that my manager told me to act like she wasn't in the building and said she wouldn't come out but by this time the customer had already knew she was there. I was never taught to pretend as if she wasn't there and this was my first time in this situation if I had some help descalating the situation this wouldnt have happened right? Anyways the customers mom called again this time screaming at the top of her lungs furious and my manager was extremely mad that "I had to them she was here" I'm terrified of her firing me since she threatened to a month ago and I love the job and I make a good pay.
How should I go about this?
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Room code is 9998822
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2021.12.07 00:56 BoobyStreamer Can I just disconnect the negative terminal on car battery to preserve the battery life while on a month vacation?

Going to be leaving for a month and want to preserve the battery. The battery itself is a couple years old, and the car is driven seldom (covid). I usually hook the car up to a float charger to an external housing outlet once every week or two to keep the battery levels up, but when I am gone there is going to be rain several days and it doesn't seem smart to keep the charger plugged in, while the car is parked outside in the rain.
Haven't had the best of luck leaving the car connected sit longer than 2-3 weeks without having to jump it or have it barely turn over. I don't have a garage or someone else to drive the car for me occasionally. Is the negative disconnect sufficient or do I need to disconnect the positive, too? Also, its a 20 year old Honda, so not many modern electronics to worry about.
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2021.12.07 00:56 richpanda64 So will there be information on what we are supposed to do before or on the day of graduation?

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2021.12.07 00:56 jcas1123 Anyone get any of the new things she sent out?

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